Are You Serious About That?

I think when we come before God and confess that an area of our lives or aspect of our character is not honoring and needs to change his first question is "Are You Serious About That?". I think he asks that question by temporarily (I hope) amplifying what he allows to happen in that area of our lives to reveal where our heart truly is on this subject.
My human thinking about becoming more positive and thankful was 1) Confess it 2) Ask for God's help 3) Take an action step that forces me out of my grump slump and into an awareness of my attitude, i.e. blog about it.
Throughout the day it has been revealed to me that God's plan was 1) GET YOUR HEART INTO IT!

None of what I'm going to write below is equal to plague and famine. I, like all believers, have many blessings in my life. The whole fact that I know this and still struggle with my attitude has already been shown. Here's how things transpired just 48 hours after my commitment and public proclamation that I will be more positive:

Woke up and before I even got my shower the puppy was vomiting.

He has never done this before.

I wonder if I should worry.

Kids are arguing and playing instead of showering and dressing.

It takes me an insanely long time to get ready because I have to keep going down the hall and adjusting attitudes.

Grant covers his ears and whines throughout school if I give an assignment that isn't FUN.

Kyla repeatedly subtracts her addition problems.

She cries and yells "NO" when I tell her they will have to be redone.

Dog throws up again.

Kids freak out about Dog throwing up.

Call vet to ask when to start worrying about dog puke.

I go into bathroom and find that Kyla has cut off a chunk of her hair, for the 3rd time in her life, and attempted to hide it in the wastebasket.

Semi-calmly talk to Kyla about this.

Tell Kyla she will be grounded for the rest of the day.

Go into my bedroom with non-family-friendly words in my head.

I cry.

Can't talk to hubby because he's out of town and in class right now.

Call my Mom in tears and ask her to pray for me.

Try to compose myself .

Get the kids ready for tutoring.

Drive them to tutoring only to find out that it is cancelled.

ETC.

It's about a half hour later and I have all but convinced myself that there is no rhyme or reason to all of this. When the words "Are you serious about this? Get your heart into it then. These circumstances change nothing." pop into my head.

I pray about what's next. This evening I'm going to try to write a bit about things I am thankful for today. I feel like I need Thanksgiving 101 and God has enrolled me in Advanced Thanksgiving Concepts in a Fallen World.